week 10: family

Other things may change us, but we start and end with the family.  ~Anthony Brandt


as i am packing up our suitcases to go away for my nephew's graduation in upper michigan,
i am thinking that i can't wait to see my family! it's been 10 months since i have seen my parents, my siblings (5 older brothers, 1 older sister) and my nieces & nephews ( i have 6 nephews, 3 great-nephews, and  10 nieces just on my side of the family). i miss everyone so much that my heart literally hurts. it got me thinking of this quote, "other things may change us, but we start and end with the family" . that about sums it up for me. more than anything in this world, my family is the most important thing to me. more important than any house, any item, any THING.

week 9: on art

“Art is not what you see, but what you make others see.” ~ Edgar Degas


 I love to scrapbook, I love art, I love photography. It's all a part of who I am.  Who says that my work isn't good enough, who says I am not an artist? it's not up to them to decide. You don't have to like it, that's okay, I like it. It makes me happy, it fills my soul. And one day, I like to think my girls will love and appreciate that I made their childhoods my life's art work....they are my world, my canvas and I love to create my art based on their beautiful little souls.

week 8: on being brave.

“Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.”  (mary tyler moore)

it's so much easier in life to stay the same, to not change, to not take chances. to not grow. it's easy to just keep being the same.

but in doing so, you crush a part of yourself that longs to be the best that it can be, that wants to grow & experience and love.

a part of you that wants to be real, be exactly who you are/were meant to be.  I want to be the real me & for others to love and

accept me for who I am. I want to try new things, to take chances and to be exactly the person that God wants me to be.....

week 7: on never giving up!

  

                                    "When the world says, "Give up,"
                                      Hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.' "

                                                      ~ Unknown

                              

I used to be a size 2-4 until I turned 26, then was a sizes 6-8. then I got married & had 2 babies,

19 months apart and have never been able to get below a size: 10 & even had been all the way into

a size 14. I know women shouldn't judge by a number, but I haven't been happy with my body since 

I had my babies (who are turning 10 & 12 this year). Every January I start out strong, exercising 2-4 

hours per day, eating right, losing about 17lbs and then I gain it all back, stop working out and feel 

horrible about myself. Well this is the year, 2011, that I am now trying to incorporate lifestyle changes,

changes that I can keep. If I want chips, I will allow myself to have them. I am realizing setbacks are part of the process and not a reason to give up and sabotage myself and gain it all back. I am exercising, just not in excess, but in moderation. I am eating the things I want, but in moderation. I am slowly  getting the body I want and becoming who I want to be....and this time, I won't give up!

**photo taken by Ava age: 9 (first photo that I haven't taken of myself on this blog so far)